beauty things i fail at

things i don't just suck at, i fail on some level

1. painting my toe nails
we're going to get personal here. just a warning. i'm one of those ones who paints them and then let's the polish chip and grow out with the nail. i do cut them and then the polish comes off. i'm lazy about it.

2. false eyelashes
it takes a while to put them on, messes with your shadow. i do like the look of them, but me putting them on involves a lot of cursing and anger. i have to really be in the mood to wear them.

3. hair care/styling
i color my hair when i feel like it. i mostly wear it in a ponytail or clip. i don't like applying heat to my hair, it doesn't respond well. i also wash it once a week, since my hair needs those oils from previous lightening. i don't add any products and don't use conditioner, since it breaks me out. i know lots of hair things being a cosmo, i'm just lazy with my own hair.

4. panda liner
i still like wearing black liner, looking like a panda. i know everyone hates it, i don't really care. i'm still going to wear it when i need to get makeup done fast.

5. keeping up on new beauty products
there's so many palettes, brushes, primers, and powders coming out i can't up with it. some products i'm not interested in at all, others only semi interested. the only thing i'm lacking in right now is water line liners. i don't need any blushes, shadows, powders, or primers. i already have most of my favorite products, which work pretty well. i don't feel the need to try everything that comes out. i don't have the energy, funds, or interest in that.

6. spot cleaning
i do clean my brushes, but i don't spot clean them. i wipe them off if there's color on it, but i don't feel the need to use alcohol on it. no one else uses my makeup and i wouldn't let them anyway.

7. awkward swatches/lighting
i know i fail at this, i'm the queen on awkward swatches and sketchy lighting. the sun doesn't like me taking pictures of makeup. i also like using maximum room on my arm for swatching. it could be better, i'll probably work on it at some point.

8. candles?
this might not be a beauty thing, but i'm sticking it here. i can't do candles. i have cats and not a lot of space, and most lighters don't fit far enough down to light the candle. i do like wax tarts, which do work just as great. it's less of a mess and less jars. wax is also cheaper than candles.

best beauty products 2014 for me

saaammage did an excellent video on this, and everyone's doing some sort of 2014 best of stuff. mine's not that intense. 

|face|
moisturizer-aveeno daily moisture
primer-nyx photo loving primer
bb cream-maybelline pure bb and fergie bb cream, both in light
eye primer-too faced shadow insurance and urban decay primer potion
concealer-elf tone correcting concealer in light beige
powder-elf tone correcting powder in cool
"contour"-tarte blush in classic
blush-too faced candy glow
highlight-fergie rose champagne glow and wet n wild reserve your cabana
setting spray-elf setting spray
remover wipes-elf makeup remover wipes
makeup remover-equate makeup remover

|palettes|
sugarpill palettes
urban decay naked 3
urban decay vice 3
kat von d chrysalis
urban decay smoked

|liner|
physicians formula eye boosting liner in ultra black
rimmel scandaleyes pencils in white and nude
blackheart beauty pencil in black

|mascara|
too faced better than sex, maybelline falsies, and wet n wild megalength, all in very black

|sponge|
real techniques sponge

|nails|
top coat-beauty secrets top coat
base coat-revlon colorstay, not the gel one

|lips|
balm-nivea milk and honey balm
exfoliator-elf exfoliator stick
lip color-revlon kissable in charm and honey

|hair|
color-well colorcharm in 3RV black cherry
shampoo-pantene 2in1 and V05 in strawberries and cream

|skincare|
eye cream-algenist renewal balm
night cream-equate night cream

|misc|
brushes-sedona lace mellow mint kabuki and tapered blending
coastal scents 22 piece brush set

eye highlight-wet n wild brulee

perfume-bath and body works black raspberry vanilla and dark kiss

masks-freeman clay chocolate strawberry and cucumber peel off masks

exfoliator/brush cleaner-sephora pore cleansing pad and equate baby shampoo

face cleanser-equate gentle cleanser

i hope 2015 goes well for all and hopefully everything's cool. have fun!

xmas shopping after prt 1

this is what i mostly wanted for xmas. i do have 2 more gift cards, so there is probably going to be a prt 2. 
sephora black magic, triple threat,  naked 3, naked basics, naked pencils

 black magic
little rant inserted here-this thing was hard as anything to track down. i went on ulta, sephora, and urban decay, since this thing sold out fast (especially being price dropped from 39 to 19). i was freaking out i would have to order it from macy's, but luckily the sephora in jcp's had them. sephora told me all of the stock was sold out on both stores. if you're having trouble, call the sephora in jcp's to see if they maybe have it.

 triple threat

naked pencils
i recently went through and gave away my other eyeliners (after sanitizing them). they were cheap liners that weren't pigmented enough for me. i wanted these for both waterline and around eye liners.

 zero, whiskey, venus, crave, darkside, blackheart

 sabbath, perversion, smoke

black velvet, smoke, perversion, lsd, zero, demolition, black market, tornado
i know i have zero and perversion multiple times. perv is a good around eye liner, but it makes my eyes water even when i set it. i'm hoping zero and velvet don't do this. plus black liner is a goth girl staple.

 urban decay lipstick sample f-bomb

boscia cleansing gel

walmart wax melts

iced raspberry sangria-smells like raspberries

pure white woods-smells like a cologne mixed with trees

brownie pecan pie-smells chocolaty with some nuts 

golden amber-it smells like a soft perfume, but not floral

twinkling holiday lights-smells like a minty pine tree

candied mulberry spice-mostly berries, no spice

cranberry mandarin-mostly mandarin, not much cranberry
orange vanilla-smells like a creamsicle
mandarin-smells like sweet oranges

buttered rum brulee-smells like a buttery dessert

sugared pecan pumpkin-mostly pumpkin, not much pecan

sparkling party punch-smells like a citrus soda

pinecones and fir-smells like good old pine trees

fall fruit cornucopia-smells like fruit, mostly apples and bananas

xmas tag prt 2

this is from letzmakeup, which is another xmas tag.

1. Favorite Christmas movie?

claymation ones and cartoon grinch
2. Favorite Christmas song?

the claymation ones and grinch, those are cool
3. Do you stay in your PJ's or dress up on Christmas?

if i'm home i stay in pjs. if i have to leave, i semi-dress up
4. Do you open presents on Christmas Eve or Christmas Day?

used to open one on xmas eve, now it's mostly on xmas
5. Have you ever built a gingerbread house?

twice, and it wasn't really eaten
6. What do you do on your Christmas break?

7. Favorite Christmas smell?

when i was in college, i would catch up on sleep and friends
8. Favorite Christmas meal or treat?

i guess pie
9. Have you ever had a White Christmas?

not in a really long time, i'm ok with that
10. Can you name Santa's Reindeer?

dasher, dancer, prancer, vixen, comet, cupid, donner, blitzen, rudolph. if you sing the song it helps
11. Is your tree real or fake?

i don't have a tree, my cats would eat it and take over it
12. Your dream holiday destination over Christmas?

somewhere not cold
13. Most memorable Christmas moment?

not any good ones
14. Do you make New Years Resolutions?

i kind of do, be nice to people

winterlicious tag 14

going to lose some major goth points now, i'm prepared
1) Favorite Winter Nail Polish?
sinful colors holiday cheer, china glaze for audrey/opi silver crackle(have on now)
2) Favorite Winter lip product?
nivea milk and honey balm, nyx vampy enamored
3) Most worn Winter clothing piece?
BAF piercing hoodie, it's cold out, layer hoodies
4) Most worn Winter accessory?
iron star fingerless gloves, best $5-7 gloves ever
5) Favorite winter scent/candle?
walmart coal or eucalyptus mint, or gingerbread
6) Favorite Winter beverage?
hot chocolate with caramel
7) All time favorite Christmas/Holiday movie?
old grinch stole xmas or claymation movies
8) Favorite Christmas/Holiday song?
none
9) Favorite Holiday food/treat?
pie
10) What is your favorite Christmas Decoration this year?
i don't decorate
11) What's at the top of your Christmas list?
2 things from sephora, so i can cash in points. tarte stuff and naked stuff from ulta. hoodie from hot topic. not much makeup things
12) What are your plans for the holidays this year?
mom in afternoon, dad's house later

tumblr tag 13

Mythology Asks

• Anubis:How do you feel about death?
• it's a cool interesting thing, but very personal in family.
• Atum:What are your greatest imperfections?
• teeth, skin, weight
• Bastet:Do you have any cats?
• 1 and my mom has 1
• Hathor:What brings you joy?
• makeup/beauty things, dark things, animals
• Horus:What is one thing you've had to fight for in your life?
• against the "bad kid goth" stereotype. just cause i wear black and be spooky doesn't mean i'm evil
• Osiris:Do you believe in the underworld?
• sort of
• Ra:Do you have any major responsibilities or importance?
• feed the cat, make sure room mate doesn't die, graduate college
• Thoth:Do you like to read/write?
• sort of, depends on what i'm doing
• Arawn:What is the most terrifying thing you've ever done?
• tests, like driver's and boards test
• Bran:How is your health?
• it's good, not many complaints
• Brighid:Tell us about your relationship with your father.
• we're fine
• Cernunnos:What is your favorite animal?
• fuzzy ones
• Danu:What is your relationship with your mother?
• we're cool
• Morrigan:What do you think happens when we die?
• depends on what you believe in. hopefully i'll come back as a cat and be pampered
• Olwen:What is your favorite flower?
• dahlias or lilies
• Rhiannon:Have you ever been betrayed?
• most of the time
• Bragi:What kind of music do you listen to?
• spooky music that makes old people judge you
• Freya:Have you ever been in love?
• yup
• Freyr:Do you have any children?
• my cat, i hate children
• Hœnir:Are you a silent or talkative person?
• both, depends on who i'm with
• Iounn:How old are you?
• 23
• Loki:What is the best trick you've ever pulled on someone?
• fake wrote a love note and she found out and cried
• Odin:What is your family like?
• my parents are separated for the better, so both sides are ok
• Thor:Would you consider yourself pretty powerful?
• smart wise yes
• Tree:What have you done with your life? What are you going to do with it?
• got my cosmo license, going to college later
• Aphrodite:What do you think of yourself?
• pretty cool
• Ares:Are you an easy person to anger?
• if i'm pmsing or on my period
• Athena:Would you consider yourself an artist?
• i doodle
• Apollo:Do you play any instruments?
• no
• Dionysus:Do you drink?
• no
• Hades:Do you have a bad reputation?
• joan jett does, i don't
• Hekate:Have you ever tried to communicate with the dead?
• no
• Hermes:Have you ever stolen anything?
• probably when i was younger
• Poseidon:Are you a moody person?
• if pmsing or on period
• Zeus:Are you a confident person?
• depends on what i'm doing
• Jupiter:Would people say that you are intimidating or fairly approachable?
• usually black scares them
• Pluto:Where do you think we go when we die?
• depends on what you believe
• Apollo & Dianna:Do you prefer to be up during the day or at night?
• day, creepers come out at night
• Mars:Have you ever gotten into a fight?
• not physical
• Minerva:Do you generally give good advice?
• depends
• Proserpine:Have you ever felt trapped?
• most of the time
• Plutus:Do you have a job?
• not yet, just got license
• Venus:Have you ever had your heart broken?
• yeah
• Vesta:Do you like being home or do you try to get out whenever you can?
• home, people mostly suck
• Morpheus:Do you daydream often? Of what?
• graduating college and getting my house

tumblr tag 12, nsfw-ish

1. Are looks important in a relationship?

not really, it's a perk

2. Are relationships ever worth it?

depends

3. Are you a virgin?

no

4. Are you in a relationship?

no

5. Are you in love?

no

6. Are you single this year?

yes

7. Can you commit to one person?

yeah

8. Describe your crush

dark hair, dark eyes, likes dead things

9. Describe your perfect mate

dark hair, dark eyes, goth-punk, not a jerk

10. Do you believe in love at first sight?

no

11. Do you ever want to get married?

no

12. Do you forgive betrayal?

no

13. Do you get jealous easily?

no

14. Do you have a crush on anyone?

band men and one flirt

15. Do you have any piercings?

17

16. Do you have any tattoos?

no

17. Do you like kissing in public?

depends

20. Do you shower every day?

yeah, unless i'm sleeping

21. Do you think someone has feelings for you?

not deep feelings

22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

no

23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?

yeah, already did that

24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?

hell no

25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year?

not really

26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?

all the time

27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you?

yeah

28. Have you ever been cheated on?

yeah

29. Have you ever cheated on someone?

no

30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body?

no

31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?

sure

32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?

no

33. Have you ever had sex with a man?

yeah

34. Have you ever had sex with a woman?

no

35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?

yeah

36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends?

yeah

37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?

all the time

38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?

kind of

39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?

band men

40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone?

maybe

41. Have you had sex so far this year?

once

42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?

a really long time depending on the person

43. How long was your longest relationship?

18 months

44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?

4.5

45. How many people did you kiss in 2012/2013?

1-2

46. How many times did you have sex last year?

none

47. How old are you?

23

48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?

go for it

49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her?

i don't

50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?

hell no, they still suck

51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for?

no

52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why?

lots of people, they suck

53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?

kind of

54. Is there someone you will never forget?

always

55. Share a relationship story.

my ex wrote me a love note a page long about how much he loved, how he was sorry, and how he wanted a future with me and couldn't live without me. i laughed in his face but forgave him. 

56. State 8 facts about your body

1 i'm underweight, 2 i have long legs, 3 my eyes are blue/green/gray, 4 dirty blonde/pink hair, 5 my nails are shorter, 6 i have a few body freckles, 7 i'm flexible, 8 my feet looked weird in skinny shoes

57. Things you want to say to an ex

nothing really

58. What are five ways to win your heart?

not be an ass-hat, bring me food, snuggle and keep me warm, give me all the hoodies, dark features

59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)

60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners?
a year
61. What is the first thing you notice in someone?
hair
62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you?
give me food or hoodies
63. What is your definition of “having sex”?
genitals touching inside, sexy times
64. What is your definition of cheating?
sexy times, anything you have to hide
65. What is your favorite foreplay routine?
bjs, licking, touching
66. What is your favorite roleplay?
touching
67. What is your idea of the perfect date?
at home, take out, movies
68. What is your sexual orientation?
straight
69. What turns you off?
being an ass-hat, bad hygiene
70. What turns you on?
dark features, being nice
71. What was your kinkiest wet dream?
a friend and i going all out
72. What words do you like to hear during sex?
moaning, your name, that feels good
73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?
give me food or a hoodie
74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?
dark hair/eyes
75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?
give me food
76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone?
forgive them
77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?
as long as both consent and it's legal
78. What’s your dirtiest secret?
i have ears and tails
79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why?
my friend graduated college, i want to
80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
yesterday
81. Who are five people you find attractive?
marilyn manson, quinn allman, billy martin, max bemis, adam lazzara
82. Who is the last person you hugged?
tom
83. Who was your first kiss with?
some guy in kindergarden
84. Why did your last relationship fail?
he had issues
85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?
no